Animationfilm, 5.30 min
Eye on Art, Eye Filmmuseum, Amsterdam, 2018









CANON AE-1
FUJIFILM C200/ KODAK COLORPLUS










<To the end of the world> 


You are walking
Walking through the crowd
You're looking for the meaning of everything
You want to be the Superman of Nietzsche
You look at people gathered together, eager for companions, not herdsmen, not herds, not corpses.
You want to be the night, but you are the light.
Drawing on no warm light, your hoarse roars, issued is silence.
Rain falls, like your tears.
You only dare to cry in the rain


You close your eyes, you lose gravity and fall,
Fall into the gorge of the gap
Fall into the cold water of the lake
Being wrapped by aquatic plants, being swallowed by darkness
You open your eyes
You are reminded by your fate of being the light
So, you grow wings and struggle to get out of the abyss
You fly up into the clouds, wrapped up in thick clouds
Then fall again.


You fell in love with someone
You fell in love with her
You fell in love with her
You fell in love with her
She's gone
Everything is a smog like cloud, slowly dissipating and dimming.
One day you can only remember the fact that you loved her.
You hugged yourself and let go of your hands in disgust.


If there is an afterlife, you want to be a bird, a fish
eagle or serpent,
either a Lion or elephant
But you know the pleasure of being a human
Pain is also happy
Pain gives you the feeling of being alive
To be alive is a celebration


You believe that human beings live in a false and meaningless Society
Because there is no standard to test whether the rules you have always followed are correct
You hate human beings, but you don't have the heart to hurt them
You found
You love them more than you think.


You refuse the embrace of God, still the one moves in a storm.
The sky and the land are gray, and the city is the eternal night.
You close your eyes and you see the world is barren.
You're still alone
Who is talking in the crowd
Who is fighting in this absurd world
You enjoy the view
You keep asking yourself where you want to go
Until a voice comes out of your heart:
to the end of the world.




<去世界的尽头>


你走着
走在拥挤的人潮中
你在寻找,寻找一切的意义
你读尼采,你渴望成为超人
你看着聚在一起的人群,渴望一个同伴,不是牧人,不是羊群,更不是死尸。
你是夜,可你却生而为光。
在汲取不到任何温暖的光明之中,你声嘶力竭的嘶吼,发出的却是一片寂静。
你站在雨中,眼泪也像雨滴一样落下
你只敢在雨中哭泣


你闭上眼,失去重力的下坠,
坠入峡谷的缝隙,
坠入冰冷的湖水
被水草缠绕,被黑暗吞噬
你睁开眼,想起了你是光的宿命
于是你又长出翅膀,挣扎着从黑暗中一跃而出
你一口气冲上云端,被厚厚的云层包裹
然后又再一次坠落


你爱上了某个人
你爱上了她
你爱上了她
你爱上了她
她走了
一切都是烟雾般的云,慢慢地消散、变淡。
淡到有一天你只能记起你爱过她的事实。
你抱住自己,又厌恶的松开手


如果有来世,你想做一只鸟或一条鱼
或者鹰和蛇,
狮子和大象也可以
但你深知为人的乐趣
痛苦也是快乐的
痛苦给你活着的感觉
能活着就是值得庆祝的


你相信人类生活在一个虚假而无意义的社会中
因为没有一个标准能检验那些你一直遵守的准则是否有意义
你憎恨人类,却不忍心伤害他们
你发现
你比你想象的更爱他们


你拒绝了神的怀抱,仍然一个人顶着狂风暴雨前行
野外的天和地都是灰蒙蒙的,而城市又是永恒的夜色。
你闭上眼,看到世界一片荒芜。
你还是一个人
一个人在人群中侃侃而谈
一个人在这荒唐的人世间战斗
你享受这景色
你不停地问自己要去何方
直到有个声音从你心底传出:
去世界的尽头